Childhood Trauma
This happened over the course of a week and I stayed with my father questioning my existence
What is getting kicked out?
I use it nearly every day but it's not abuse, it's just a substance I use to keep away my harmful thoughts and anxiety
What is weed?
This is the opposite of being dead
What is being alive?
This illness causes me to avoid social situations and has decreased my self-esteem and self-acceptance
What is anxiety?
I tell these to make up for awkward or emotional situations
What are jokes?
This occurred throughout many of my dad's early relationships which causes me to fear relationships
What is violence?
Not exactly a substance but I abuse the use of these and consume them every day in hopes of killing my organs
What are monsters?
This has caused me to push friends and family away and to never act upon my desires
What is fear of intimacy?
This illness causes unplanned sadness and excessive exhaustion
What is depression?
I put this acronym after sentences or words that appear emotional in anyway to keep people from asking too many questions
What is lol?
This nearly happened when I was four and my grandma and dad had to take care of me in the meantime
What is my mom's death?
I used these almost every day for years until I realized they are no longer affective
What are pills?
I did this when I was twelve because I was told it would be better for me, it resulted in me rarely seeing my father
What is living with my mom?
This illness causes me to fret over small mistakes and causes other illnesses to kick in when in full effect
What is OCD?
I use these gestures to get out of uncomfortable situations
What are finger guns?
This dissolution happened when I was three but was not legally on paper until I was seven
What is divorce?
I began using these recently as I can legally buy them although they are hard to use and taste horrible
What are cigars?
I did this for three years and still have urges that haunt me daily
What is cutting?
This illness is very impulsive and has resulted in bloody knuckles and sore muscles
What is anger issues?
I go through these when I'm sad to try to fix the gaping hole in my sanity
What are memes?
My dad used to do this in the car while I sat in the back seat wondering if we'd even make it home
What is drunk driving?
I do this privately and with friends and family, but I've had way more than everyone knows and I've thrown up because of it
What is drinking?
I tried this for years but each person told me I was just a child and would get over my problems
What is therapy?
This illness caused me to pass out in my English class of senior year and continuously tells me to repeat the event
What are suicidal thoughts and tendencies?
I use these to keep people from getting too close and tell them that I usually say these things for fun
What are insults?