Oh. So that was the 'tism
This completely innocuous sound makes me want to scratch my eyes out and stab my ears with spoons.
What is any type of light buzzing?
Grew up with everyone saying these "positive" things about me which were actually incrediblely damaging
What is "you're so mature for your age," "you have an old soul," "so pretty-you're gonna get in a lot of trouble with boys," "mom's mini me /mini boss," "you don't need __(insert basic child need)__ you're too responsible!"
This social interaction turns my brain into a loading screen. I cannot think of anything so I give same answer everytime.
Introductions/ ice breakers
This minor inconvenience becomes your emergency the moment it happens to me.
What is killing a bug?
I hate this "fun" thing cuz its sensory hell
Bonus if you can tell me what high-school event i missed cuz of this and social expectations
What is shopping/malls, birthday parties, concerts, sleepovers, parties of any kind?
What is junior year prom?
(Bonus bonus points for extras)
I learned early on that love was this.
Bonus if examples are given
Conditional
This “polite” social behavior feels like emotional surgery with no anesthesia.
Responding to "how are you" sincerely to anyone other than you.
Small talk
I’ve avoided this task so long, it has become a permanent part of my environment.
What is putting the shelf back up or unpacking anything or putting clothes away?
Some memorized all the dinosaurs. I had books upon books of different types of this species.
Canines - all canines but mainly dogs
Only watched this show over and over to develop some sort of control and consistency in my life.
What is Supernatural?
This allegedly “simple” adult task short-circuits my entire nervous system. It seriously hurts.
What is showering or touching raw chicken?
Yes, I procrastinated this *major* task until the last minute.
What is applying to vet school or the NAVLE, deciding about this semester, or studying for the NAVLE?
I threw a baggie of these everyday at lunch cuz they got mushy and brown
Apples and i felt so guilty
One of my most defining childhood traits that were actually a trauma response
What is hyper-independence, perfectionism or agreeable (not having strong opinions)?
This thing requires only 2 minutes of effort… and yet I’ve avoided it for 6 weeks.
What is making an appointment, responding to an email, refill water bottles, or opening the mail?
I trust you more than myself when it comes to this extremely avoidable meltdown.
What is eating or sleeping or relaxing?
This common and often necessary thing happens to my day that absolutely disregulated and physically hurts me.
What is a change in plans?
These animals saved my life.
Who is Mac, Tucker, Jack, and Enzo?
I "once" went into full panic mode over this completely normal thing.
What is answering a call im not expecting, picking the movie/music/portal activity, or making a minor decision?
This is something I am technically capable of doing, but im literally just a girl.
What is taking the trash down, getting my own caramels, get the door, etc?